Mixed feelings...

The breeze on my hair...
My hair on my face...
Blinding me...
Choking me...
The pain consumes me...
The sky turns gray while i think of u...
My heart beats when i see u...
I see the ocean...
The way it crashes into the rocks...
So free...
I feel so empty, yet so full...
So confused and yet im clear...
So sad and yet filled with joy...
What is happening to me?